jukebox playin'
pulanglah - aishah
masih ada yang sayang - noraniza idris
dari jauh ku pohon maaf - sudirman
it's a cool, cloudy sunday today... casting a dour, dismal shade upon evrything in sight. i feel kinda awkward typin out a blog entry right now, after disappearing frm blogworld fer.. hmm.. let's see.. NIne Days?? whew~! that's kinda a looonngg time isnt it? i don't think i've ever been away from blog fer soo long before but then again it's not like i had much of a choice.. After my monitor got busted, i couldnt find the time to go down to sim lim square to get a new one until the third day of raya (last thursday) and even then, i was too busy to really write an entry... Well anyhow, the new acer flatscreen monitor is pretty nifty despite the fact that it is NOT an LCD screen (i was hindered by budget constraints). however, i'm very thankful that i got a new monitor at ALL... and a HUGE thank you to tjay who accompanied me to sim lim & to dear faizal who helped me to carry it ;-)
hari raya celebrations this year arent really that great actually. sumhow or other, there seem to be a certain festive ATmosphere lacking... and i really detest people who travel in busloads when they go visiting.. don't they know that they're an inconvenience to the houses that they visit??? it's even worse when there're scores of noisy little kids... when they descend into your humble four-room flat, its CHAOS. but then, kids arent too bad actually.. it's those big-sized hungry adults with their boisterous voices that i'm Reaally afraid of.. i mean, just IMagine trying to serve more than a DOZEN of such adults in your home; besides the fact that your petite six-seater dining table can't fit evryone, you also gotta worry about the number of drinks to serve & whether your living room table (which is already crammed wif a dozen variety of cookies & cakes) has the Capacity of holding so many items... and when there's a couple of kids running around in the bargain, it's akin to pandemonium i tell you... *haiz* Perhaps next year i should juz advise my mom to have an open house wif buffet-style dishes... hmmm... but then, i'm not really into these "open-house" concepts...
hahaha.. i'm complaining about large hari raya congregations when in reality, i'm partly guilty of such a crime too. for instance, my sister's family and my brother's family, my mom, my adik & i always travel together... and i think it's really very fun. it gives me the impression that we're a complete family unit once again just like in the good old days before dad passed away, before adik got diagnosed wif SLE, before my elder bro got retrenched frm his previous job, before my sis had her matrimonial woes... THOSE were much happier times i guess and i know i shouldnt lament so much over things past but i cant help it! hari raya is like the PERFEct time of the year to be nostalgic & sentimental about things... I was watching "Rumah terbuka tan sri SM Salim" yesterday morning on suria and when that old bloke broke into tears during his rendition of the depressing "musafir di aidilfitri", i couldnt help but brim over wif tears also... it's really one of the most DISMAL lagu raya around. But of course, SM Salim had every reason to be weepy; he is the youngest of twelve siblings & the only one still surviving, his parents are both dead (obviously cuz he's so goddamn old already, fer gawds'sake!) and last i heard, his wife apparently had passed away too... fer the uninformed, a couple of years back, he suffered a stroke which nearly ended his life and since then, he hasnt been able to walk unaided... thus preventing him frm visiting the graves of his loved ones. AND that was what set me off into weepy kingdom i guess cuz i had juz been to choa chu kang cemetery a couple of days before... Unfortunately, i wasnt really in such a good mood then becuz we kept getting harrassed by this man (one of those pakciks who work there freelance) and i thought it was very rude of him to intrude into an otherwise private communion. ARgh.. wadever lah DuanDuan~!! (i think i'm growing quite fond of this phrase as a sort of self-reproach; but anyone else had better not say it to my face! grrrr~!)
is there anything else fer me to gripe about?? oh yes of course.. it's the whole superficiality about raya; REally, why must people who dislike one another, actually VISIT one another??? why must people pretend to be all smiles and welcome those inherently unwelcome into their homes??? hari raya outings can be pretty sickening... but of course some visitors are really wonderful to have around; it's those inconsiderate, whiny & fastidious ones that really freak me out... ;-p
here in my neighbourhood, it's mighty quiet & drab. i think i'm beginning to miss my nieces. Hahhha.. i'm always at loggerheads over myself over whether i miss them or not; on the one hand, they can be such a nuisance, while on the other, they're sooo endearingly irresistible. seriously, hari raya wifout small kids can be a pretty dull affair. ohwell, i'll see them soon enuff...
i really havent got much of a clue of what i'd be doing today. yesterday was a disappointment; it was a saturday yet Not ONe visitor came, much to my mom's chagrin (apparently, she had overcooked). Maybe i'll try to find sumthing constructive/productive to do.... hmmmm...
PS: fer those of you who know me personally, you're cordially invited to my humble abode this raya; and no, i'm NOT being plastic... DO come But NOT in a crowd please.. ;-)
