These were the words posed to me by a very good friend of mine and though i was astonished initially by the sheer abruptness of those questions, it wasnt even a heartbeat later before i answered him assuredly, "YES."
However, this affirmation by no means makes me a special individual or someone who is exclusively gifted with the talent to wallow in the depths of depression. It is, in fact, a common feeling experienced by almost evryone at least at one point or another in their lives. Some people are fortunate enough to have the good sense to snap out of it while some others may find that this is a recurring emotion which they could not shake off so easily, be it due to extenuating circumstances or just plain obstinacy. (I probably fall under the latter category) STill, i think the first step to self-recovery from depression is to know that you're not alone in this inevitable quicksand of Life (that sucks you in deeper wif evry day of living) and so i hope this very good friend of mine remembers this. There may not be much that i can do for you but a listening ear to ease the burden off your chest can do wonders...
Back to reality; i didnt do anything much over the weekend but i feel SO tired that i can even feel it in my bones. i'm getting old~! well anywayz, had promised edward that i'd meet him last saturday to try to alleviate his spirits abit becuz a certain someone had flown off to australia to complete his degree. *winkwink* Hence, went down to town in the evening and spent the next couple of hours engaging in empty banter wif the hang-out party at our old haunt, heeren 's spinellis. After dinner at liat towers BK, bumped into the notorious fazlee a.k.a. lily neoww and he was his usual loud & blatant self, unsurprisingly; but there's sumthing about flamboyant people that are just so... erm.. delightful?? LOL. Played pool at marina (where else?) fer about an hour but soon got tired of that. Ended up chitchatting outside and for want of sumthing better to do, we decided to walk down to laupasat fer our suppers. Clubbing or partying was certainly out of the question becuz most of us were not up for it PLUS the fact that chacha wasnt around; i was most definitely in a "switch-off" mode.
yesterday was a "recovery" period. spent the day juz lazing around on the couch after i finally woke up at noon. Also helped out my mom & sis making pineapple tarts cuz they brazenly took orders fer six hundred of them. i'm already quite an expert at filling the centers of the tart wif pineapple paste but i keep having this irresistible urge to lick that sweet paste off my fingers. why is that so?? haha, anyhow, we still have a hundred left to make and after that, we have to start wif the kueh makmur, which i simply detest making... it's very marfan ah! ;p Since my sis is at work and most probably will be on overtime, my mom & i will have to do the honors. Moreover, we gotta hurry abit cuz the orders are due end of this week... damn these manjen people! why cant they learn to make their festive goodies themselves??? LOL
after much thought, i've decided that one resolution isnt enough, and thus i've come up wif some others to add on to my list: Firstly, due to impending old age and current economic downturn which has NOT shown signs of recovery (in my opinion, that is), i've decided to reduce nightlife activities as far as possible. This is not only to help curb expenditure but more also fer convenience since faizal's relocation to woodlands means that there's one less person to go back wif. And poor him has only himself for company when journeying back home! Secondly, i really need to brush up on my english; i think it's gradually degenerating into a jumbled mess. hmmmm, thirdly, i'll step up efforts to look fer a job and try to aim abit lower.. haha. wadever lah duanduan~
well, i'm pretty much exhausted now.. cudnt sleep last night and thus wrote an embarrasingly long and depressing blog entry. Fortunately, i came to my senses this morning and hurriedly deleted it. The wonders of technology~!!! ;)
