I have always been a late-bloomer, I think. While other kids were jumping onto the wagon of fads, I was always the one lagging behind, abit slower than the rest. Thus, I only joined my first extra-curricular activity (as it was called back then) when I was in Primary 5 and it was Maths Club(!). YES. I was a geek, nerd, square or whatever you may call it and even now, perhaps, I have a little of that awkward geekiness in me still. Unfortunately, I'm not half as brainy as I'd imagined a geek should be...
Well anyway, Maths Club didn't captivate me for very long. I mean, all we did was sit down in class on saturdays and practice problem sums!!! So in primary 6, I developed an interest for something more "cultural" and ended up in my school's English Club and choir. That was the funnest year of my childhood because I had the opportunity to perform at our end-of-year concert; in a sketch and as part of the choir. However, it also marked one of the last years I would attempt to really perform in public because thereafter, a handful of my school-mates had compared my vocals to that of Daffy Duck or some other equally lame cartoon character. My secondary school music teacher, no less, had commented that I was quite "tone-deaf".
I must admit I've had a phobia of singing (or croaking, if you prefer) eversince and even the idea of doing so in front of a group of people (although they may be friends) is quite mind-numbing. Frankly, I don't like being in the limelight... I've always had this phobia of making too much of a fool of myself. Already, I can be a rather foolish person without even trying, so why should I do something foolish intentionally?? -- Or so I reasoned.
It is therefore quite a surprise to me, that I'm beginning to actually enjoy going to KTVs. I haven't gone to much of those yet, because I only started late last year and attend a session like only once every other month, but I can safely conclude I've gotten over ONE of my phobias.. or at least a small part of it. Sound like Taufik Batisah I do not, but I don't think I sound like a frog calling for the rain either. LOL
