Sometimes, I feel like there is an excruciatingly tight knot in chest -- making it difficult for me to breathe properly. It's as if an incredibly long string of words has tangled up into a ball and gotten caught inside my windpipe, and no matter what I try to do, I just can't seem to dislodge it. Sometimes I'd even imagine myself suffocating to death. What is it like to be choking on words??
I guess I've always been very good at bottling up my emotions. In fact, it has been something which I've been practicing at eversince I was old enough to realise the significance of keeping secrets. It is not that I want to keep secrets per se, but because it is just so very VERY hard for me to express those little "thinks" that I "think" so openly -- there must be something wrong with me.
