Today is already the sixth day of Ramadhan but I must confess that it hasn't exactly been an easy six days. I guess my (unhealthy) body is still not used to going without food and water for long periods. I know its unethical (and sacrilegious, perhaps?) but there are moments during the day, whilst at work, when I find myself daydreaming (unintentionally, of course) about my favorite foodies.
Physically restraining yourself to comply to fasting requirements are simple enough; it is trying to abstain from thinking "improper" thoughts -- that is the hard part. =p
Isn't it a wonder that most of us Muslims get the oddest (and sometimes rather unreasonable) surges of desire for certain foodies during the fasting month? And more so than at any other time of the year? And the great lengths some of us go to in order to satiate our appetites during iftar (i.e. break-fast) can be rather amusing. It's ironic then that though Ramadhan is supposed to be a sacred month of restraint and religious observance, so many of us engage in unnecessary excesses (especially in expenditure) the moment the sun sets and our fasting ends.
However, I am in no position to be sermonizing for I, myself, am guilty of such transgressions... ;)
But I digress.
The point is, being still unaccustomed to the rigours of fasting, I feel tired and lethargic all the time, even after iftar. As a result, very little gets done and frankly, this unproductiveness is getting annoying. If there's a state of being I hate the most, it is the feeling of being useless or obsolete.
Well anyway, thank god for the weekend. Perhaps a little R&R time will help my body adapt faster... I have yet to visit the Raya carnival or bazaar raya at Geylang Serai and I'm itching to go down and get me some dengdeng!!! Moreover, I haven't bought this year's baju kurung yet (I buy mine off the shelf instead of having it tailored) and intend to get it at least a full week before Raya in order to secure the right size (FYI, sizes for petite individuals such as myself tend to run out pretty fast).
What color kurung, you might ask? All shall be revealed in due time...
PS: I hope I didn't make it seem like it's my first time fasting -- it isn't. It's just that last year's Ramadhan seemed so distant now; I've almost forgotten what it was like! LOL
